Monday, January 29, 2007

The Worst Will Be Over Soon


Wifey will be leaving the two of us for one week starting today. The trip would be KL - Kangar - Langkawi - Alor Star - Bukit Merah - Cameron Highlands - KL. How dare her huh? Just look at the two faces.. do we look like we can take care of each other without her?

Anyway Wifey did go with strong justifications. The nature of the event requires her to travel that way and that long. She did request to just follow half of the event. The complete trip would add Gua Musang, Kuala Terengganu, Kuantan and other places which I didn't bother to remember. She assures us that other events won't be as crazy as this. She did bribe me with a big casserole of tiramisu :) and Arianna got herself a new book. The most important thing is we did get the full weekend all for ourselves eventhough Wifey did have lots of communications through the phone for work. We even stopped by at the office for half an hour for Wifey to bring back work to do it at home. Its a small matter to me as long as she does her work when I'm well asleep... hehe.

Well we are gonna miss you, Ibu. Eventhough you didn't upgrade your sim card to 3G, we know that you'll always remember us during your trip. We wish you all the best in organizing the event and prove to your boss that you can do it eventhough you just joined less than 1 month ago. Lastly, May Allah Bless your journey and we love you so much! :)

Friday, January 26, 2007

Thank God Its Friday

I’ve never had any Monday Blues before. I never look forward to a weekend neither. It won’t be the same from now onwards. My weekdays are never green (I suppose that’s the opposite for blue), and somehow the usual Monday – Friday seems longer than before.

I’m expecting to have a wonderful weekend with Wifey and Arianna even though I have a feeling that Wifey is going to have to work. So better not put any high hopes. Its not going to help my depression..

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Depression


Wifey told me that I might go to the state of depression if I keep on being like this. So that night I took my ketamine pills and went to the state of comma. I dunno which is worse; depression or comma. But the next morning I woke up with my brain being reset and Im back to normal.

You think it's that easy huh? Have you ever wonder why cats have 9 lives? In general cats are meant to be loved, pampered and played with humans. They are so adoreable that humans spend lots of time and money for them. Again, they core function of a cat is to be enjoyed by human beings. When they are being abandoned due to ageing and loss of cuteness, they go to the state of depression. Since in cat's world there no Dr. House or Dr. Cuddy, they will eventually die and reborn to cheer the human mankind. But why only 9 lives? Imagine how many cats will be in this world if they can re-live more than that!

p/s: I am losing it.. am I?

Monday, January 22, 2007

12 Things to Always Remember and One Thing to Never Forget

Since Wifey left for her new job, everybody seems to be asking me on how she is with her new job. Maybe they were skeptical, considering that she was doing IT related job and has a Engineering degree. Well screw the qualifications and all, she is extremely happy with her current job. Maybe its the new job that has providing her the motivational boost for her to enjoy the tasks given to her. She doesn't mind missing lunch, coming back home late in the night and not to mention travel outstation during weekends.

Being a responsible husband, its my duty to support her new undertakings. Husband mane nak tengok wife die tak happy kerja kan? But her happiness do come with a high price for me to pay. Im not shy to admit that I missed her working together with me in the same company. I miss having breakfast and lunch with her, being able to see her face almost anytime I want and other benefits that most people didn't have. Last time people used to ask me, "tak boring ke kerja satu opis? satu hari pagi petang siang malam jumpa". My answer would be, "mane ade boring! best ape". But maybe I had to answer that because wifey is there listening to my answer. But now, since 3rd January 2007, I knew the real answer to that question. My answer now would be, "I cannot live without her by my side". (Im actually trying my best not to cry while writing this.. from the office).

I can't really work efficiently anymore, I dont think Im a competent staff anymore to the company and seriously my life right now is practically meaningless. My anxiety towards photography is no more there, dont feel like blogging anymore, turned down Ayil's invitation for snooker a few times and not to leave out WORK... the source of income for the whole family.. i have no desire to work anymore. Im demotivated, no self esteem and seriously the selfish part of me is crying out " I want things to be back like it used to be!!!!".

Everyday I keep on thinking, can i live like this any longer? when will i finally adapt to the changes? will things be back to normal one day? do i need to see a psychiatrist?! seriously im considering to set an appoinment one day.

One day while letting my heart and mind fighting and killing my soul slowly, I found a card which Wifey (girlfriend back then) gave me 4 years ago as a gift for getting a new job. The title of the card is mentioned above and the lines are as below:

Your presence is a present to the world.
You're unique and one of a kind.
Your life can be what you want it to be.
Take the days just one at a time.

Count your blessings, not your troubles.
You'll make it through whatever comes along.
Within you are so mane answers.
Understand, have courage, be strong.

Realize that it's never too late.
Do ordinary things in an extraordinary way.
Have health and hope and happiness.
Take the time to wish upon a star.

And don't ever forget.. for even a day.. how very special you are.

- Collin Mc Carty

As I remembered it, the lines didn't mean much at that particular of time. She didn't even bother to peel off the price tag stating RM4.95. I remember her saying, "i tak baca sangat pon ayat die, its the thought that counts ... for you to remember the day you join the company". Well today, it took me quite a while to finish reading the lines as every line gives me the heart ache reminding me all the memories that we shared together for the past 4 years in this company..

I love you Wifey and wish you all the best in your new job!

Monday, January 15, 2007

10 months old Arianna


Pity her as she is down with a fever, cough and stomach discomfort. Vomitted a few times in the past 3 days. Well Opah said that this is "demam membeli"... "beli" apa? "Beli nak berjalan/bercakap". Whatever it is, Ayah and Ibu didnt get to do anything that weekend to look after Arianna.. except visiting Tok's stall at Plaza Mont Kiara Flea Market. But we brought her along. It seems that everbody were having fun there. Tok and Tok Njang with their waystick business, Ibu with her kek lapis, brownies and pendant shopping, Arianna with the dogs and Ayah with the Asam Laksa. I guess we'll be going there again next week as Tok is continuing his booth's rental for another 2 weekends. I hope Arianna is not sick that time...

p/s: English lesson: In composing an article, what is 1st person view? 2nd person? or is there even a 3rd person view? I get confused when it comes to this "person view" thingy.. even in games they have this terms!

Friday, January 05, 2007

First Post With My Latest Toy

Just got myself a new PC. The main reason for getting one is to post process my pictures which I intend to sell one day. After one whole evening well spent with Farul at Low Yat Plaza, the shop made a lucrative RM2000+ income. Now is 12.22am and I've done installing the OS to this new gadget of mine.

A lot of things happened in My Life in the past few weeks, such as:

1) Wifey bought herself a new IXUS 850IS.
2) I got wifey a brand new Tissot for our anniversary gift.
3) Raya Haji
4) New Year
5) We met Ceng and family a day before Raya Haji. (refer 2nd picture)
6) Wifey officially reported duty to her new job.
7) Arianna has proudly grown 3 teeth now.
8) My self-declared official attire to work is T-shirt and khakis.
9) After rejecting 2 job offers, I've been rejected by 2 companies on my applications. What do they call it? Karma?
10) Last time there were 4 "breakfast / lunch / mengular" buddies; Ayil, Farul, Wifey and Myself. Since Ayil and Wifey left, Farul and I found new regular buddies; Mama and Rodek. Our usual topics would be Malaysian movie industry, Western Parody Movies and Rodek's new set of braces. But we have to find a new replacement soon since Rodek is leaving soon.
11) One of my new year's resolution is "to appreciate life which does not cost any money". Haha.. even I myself laughed at that.





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